Monday, May 30, 2011

I never met him again!


It was August, and it was drizzling
We boarded the same train
In Bangalore
Running towards Hyderabad
We sat facing each other
Sitting beside open windows
It was dark, misty, and drizzling outside
We smiled at each other
I greeted him and he greeted me back
Exchanged a few custom-built pleasantries
We were strangers surrounded by the ocean of anonymity
Of a two-tier reserved train compartment
After the obligatory niceties
He opened a book and lost himself in his world
He was in his early twenties
The contours on his face kept changing
Every word he read reflected on his face
I wished to know what he was reading
Is it civil to disturb a stranger in deep meditation?
I remained silent, and my mind kept talking to me.
“You said something?” he inquired
“No, I did not! Anyway, what are you reading, my friend?”
“I know you are curious! I can read your mind.”
“Yes, I am curious! ...must be going through an interesting scene?”
“Not exactly! Going through an exotic experience! I am sorry, I did not keep your company.”
“I too love books, mostly fiction—popular pulp fiction!”
“You are a little harsh. There is no pulp fiction, only fiction!” he gently rebuked me.
“Do you read poetry?”
“I am a librarian. I read all sorts of ...whatever book that catches my attention!” he placed the book he was reading in my hands. It is the controversial book of Nabokov!
“You seem to love this book?”
“Yes.” His face was radiant.
“I read that book. I could hardly understand the second part!”
“You need not have to understand. The prose is sheer poetry. I read this book several times! 
“Without understanding? Don’t you want to know what the author intends to tell you?”
It slowly dawned on me: He will never finish that book—his obsession!
“Very much! I am learning French and German for that purpose. I attend classes at Alliance Franchise and Max Mueller Bhavan! ”
“Strange! Did you notice that your book is broken, and several pages are missing?”
“Yes. I have to purchase a new copy!”
“No need, my friend! I have a second copy with me. Shall I mail it to your address as a gift?”
“It is very kind of you! Please send it to me, and I promise to return it to you after reading. It is a rare book to obtain these days!”
He scribbled his address on a slip and handed the slip to me.
The next morning I attended an interview in Hyderabad with the exotic feeling inhabiting me!
I was selected for the mundane activity
To be carried out with electronic circuits in the cockpit
Of a fighter aircraft manufactured in United Kingdom.
I joined him in the evening in the train heading towards Bangalore!
I kept my promise. I sent that book to him which he duly acknowledged.
We became good friends. He wrote several letters to me
Letters—real hand-written letters conspicuous by his violet coloured ink!
He sent me several books as gifts.
We changed places, and we changed our careers.
He sends emails to me now from a foreign land!
He continues to share his feelings with new books with me.
He did not return my book so far!
May be he is still reading the prose contained in that queer narrative!
Savouring every word, every phrase!
One at a time!
He may finish reading several other books—but not that book—his obsession!
He will read it again and again!
He is not a character from one of my fantasies.
He is real—His name is Satish, the librarian!
I haven’t heard of him of late!
I love to meet him again, perhaps, in a cosy restaurant.
In August, and when it is drizzling!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Mother Seshayamma…



Mother Dharanipragada Seshayamma
(1 June 1924 – 7 May 2011)

When I first met her in their home in Patel Nagar, Bapatla… Mother Seshayamma… appeared to me as a symbol of kindness and dignity …her second son Prof. Varada Raju happens to be one of my most intimate friends…and we belong to different engineering streams…used to discuss literature and music whenever we met on our Bapatla Engineering College campus…in addition to our academic trivia...

I used to call on their Patel Nagar home several times in late 1980s and early 1990s. She used to sit in the open verandah of their big home in a cane chair going through the pages of the English newspaper The Hindu—reading through her spectacles. She looked frail but sprightly at her advanced age. She smiled at me when I entered the drawing hall and asked me to be seated. She told me that my friend went out on an errand and would be back in fifteen minutes. “You may get bored, why don’t you read today’s paper”, she said and offered a portion of The Hindu to keep me occupied. I found her to be a lady of great tenacity, sharp wit, and boundless wisdom… I was in my early forties, and until then I never saw a woman of her age reading The Hindu with such keen interest.

Later when my friend Varada Raju returned home, I could not hide my curiosity. He told me that he did not attend elementary school…he received that part of his education from Mother Seshayamma herself! I asked him an awkward question! Whether she could read English? … Oh yes ...my friend told me enthusiastically… She can speak English quite well too... Mother Seshayamma never went to any school…did not have any formal education… she learned everything from her husband…among several other things…at home…

I can clearly recall another evening during Dhanurmasam…As usual I called on their home to spend time with my friend Varada Raju… He went out and would not return home that evening…I was disappointed… Mother Seshayamma could read my mind, and asked me to be seated and made me feel at home…we discussed Thiruppaavai…the ancient Tamil hymn…she spent several years in Chennai…she could understand and speak Tamil but Thiruppaavai was written in very ancient Tamil…not within her reach…I told her that I listened to some of the discourses on Thiruppaavai by Chinna Jeeyar Swamiji…our conversation was rather desultory! I recalled the way our children spent their summer vacation that year under the leadership of a senior girl-child Sundari from Chennai…She is the daughter of Prof. Varada Raju’s elder sister… a very lively girl…my younger son Sasikanth is fond of Sundari akka!...who made their summer vacation memorable to this day…I tried to talk of Sundari to Mother Seshayamma… I could not recall the girl’s name at that instant…I was in a mess…She is a nephew of my friend; I told her…Obviously my words did not make any sense to her… “She? Nephew? Did you mean the niece of Varada Raju: Sundari?” she exclaimed! Mother Seshayamma was so perspicacious…I used the wrong gender… “Yes! …the niece of Varada Raju! Is her name Sundari?”, I corrected my English.. “Yes. Her name is Sundari, you are right!” she smiled charmingly like a little child! Later we discussed all and sundry and that was the last time I saw her in her mortal frame! The stamp of Mother Seshayamma’s smile is unique! I could find it only on the face of my dear friend Varada Raju! God does not completely erase valuable things all at once from His creation!